Dear Jeyamohan,
Today you helped me overcome a deep mental suffering caused by lust. For many years I have tried different ways to overcome it. I avoided movies and stayed away from social media. For a few days my willpower would work, but again I would fall back into watching porn and seeking self-pleasure. Even after watching many awareness videos, nothing truly helped me.
Recently I bought your book Indriya Gandhi. Some of my friends often speak badly about Gandhi. I always felt that was not right, but I did not know how to speak about him in a thoughtful and constructive way. The only understanding I had about Gandhi came from your speech on YouTube and from S. Ramakrishnan’s talk. Because of that, I felt I should study about him properly.
Around that time something felt like a small miracle of the universe. On your Unified Wisdom channel, you spoke about the Indriya Gandhi book. That is how I came to know about it. I bought it and began reading.
At first I thought I would simply learn information about Gandhi. But slowly the book began to change the way I look at life itself.
Today I read the chapter titled “Gandhiyum Kāma Kāmmamum.” Within a few pages, your words felt as if they were speaking directly to me. The tiredness in my mind slowly disappeared. Especially when you explained the idea of balance in nature, something suddenly became clear to me about lust. From that moment I felt lighter, as if a burden I had been carrying for many years had quietly flown away.
I am not saying that I have completely overcome it. But now your words stand before me like a light.
Today I noticed something new in myself. When I was outside and saw women, I could simply see their beauty without pain or agitation in my mind. Earlier, whenever I looked with lust, it would always end in regret, because that was never truly what I wanted to do. Yet I would fall into it again and again.
Today it felt different.
Words are not enough to fully express what I feel. But your words are enough to guide me toward a better life.
I taught myself to read Tamil. I still read with some difficulty, but I truly love reading Tamil. I have not yet learned to write in Tamil, so I am writing this in English.
Thank you so much for your words and for the light they bring.
With gratitude,
Jai Prakash
